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CHAPTER 4: The Boy Who Didn’t Know Love

By the time the first month passed at Westbridge, people had stopped asking questions.

That was how quickly a school could normalize cruelty once it had been framed attractively enough.

At first, there had been confusion. Curiosity. Speculation. Why was Kim Taehyung wasting his time on the scholarship girl? Why did he keep pulling her into his orbit only to order her around like she had been assigned to him by some particularly arrogant god? Why did Cella Rodriguez, who looked like she would rather swallow glass than obey anyone, keep standing beside him, carrying his files, writing his assignments, appearing exactly where he expected her to be?

But people grew lazy once a story became convenient. And the convenient story was this:

Taehyung had picked a new favorite target.

Cella had no choice.

That was enough for Westbridge.

No one saw the rhythm that had started forming beneath the performance. No one saw the sharp little life hidden behind the script. No one understood that while Kim Taehyung bullied Cella Rodriguez in full public view, she had quietly begun refusing him in the only ways that mattered. Not loudly. Not stupidly.

Never in ways that would actually cost her.

But enough to remind him, over and over, that she was not something he could tame simply because he had decided to stand too close to her life.

And God, that girl got under his skin.

Sometimes almost literally.


The first incident happened after gym class.

It was a Thursday, hot enough to make the basketball court smell faintly of varnished wood, boys’ sweat, dust, and aggression, and Taehyung had been in a particularly vicious mood all afternoon because his physics teacher had dared to suggest he was wasting potential and his own mother had texted him three times before lunch asking whether he planned to “continue living like a delinquent prince forever.”

So naturally, he made it everyone else’s problem.

Mostly Cella’s.

“Water,” he called without looking at her after the first round of drills. She handed him the bottle with a face that suggested she was imagining his funeral.

“Encouraging,” he muttered.

“Drink faster,” she replied. “The world improves when you’re too busy to talk.”

He gave her a look over the mouth of the bottle, eyes narrowed with lazy warning and something almost pleased beneath it. “You’re getting brave again.”

“You’re getting dehydrated again.”

He should have been irritated. Instead, he almost smiled. Which was exactly why he made her carry the equipment sheet back to the gym office afterward.

By the time he showered and changed into uniform, the skin along his upper thighs and just beneath the hem of his gym shorts had started itching with the kind of maddening intensity that made a person lose all dignity in under thirty seconds. By the time he reached the empty changing room mirrors again, the area had gone red enough to make him swear under his breath.

“What the hell…”

He tugged at the waistband, frowned, checked the fabric, checked his skin, checked the shorts again as though betrayal might be visible if he looked hard enough.

Nothing. No clue.

Just violent itching and the immediate certainty that if anyone at school found out, he would murder them cleanly and without remorse.

Taehyung shoved his clothes back into his gym bag with rising irritation, reached for his towel, and found a small medicine tube tucked into the side pocket.

There was a folded note taped to it. He pulled it off. Read it. And stared.

Hope you enjoyed your gym class.
— C

For one full second, all he felt was outrage.

Then, because he was unfortunately himself and because Cella Rodriguez had begun ruining him in increasingly specific ways, a laugh escaped him.

Low. Disbelieving. Half exasperated, half delighted.

“Numbness cream?” he murmured, reading the label. “You evil little menace.”

He looked around the deserted room as though she might somehow still be there, watching his reaction from a hidden corner with those wide innocent eyes and that devil-mouthed secret smile she used only when she knew she had won something.

He should have punished her for it. Should have made her carry every file he owned for a week. Should have embarrassed her right back.

Instead he uncapped the cream, applied it, and found himself grinning like an idiot alone in an empty changing room. She had done that.

His Cella.

The phrase arrived before he could stop it.

He rubbed a hand over his face and muttered, “This is getting ridiculous.”

It was. He smiled anyway.


He confronted her the next day.

Not in public. Never the real things in public. Those belonged to them now.

He waited until lunch break, watched her leave the library with two books in her arms and that focused little crease between her brows she got when she was still mentally inside whatever she had been reading, and then caught her by the wrist just as she turned into the quieter corridor behind the old language classrooms.

Cella barely startled anymore when he did things like that.

She only looked up at him, then at his hand around her wrist, then back at his face and said, with astonishing calm, “This is a terrible way to court someone.”

Taehyung had to actively lock his expression down.

Instead of reacting to the line, which would have given her too much, he pulled her into the empty classroom nearest the corridor and shut the door behind them with his foot.

The room smelled faintly of chalk and dust and stale afternoon heat. Sunlight cut through the windows in long pale bars, catching on floating particles and turning the silence unexpectedly intimate.

Taehyung let go of her wrist only when her back was near the teacher’s desk. Then he folded his arms and said,

“Did you put something in my gym shorts?”

Cella blinked. Too innocently.

“Did I?”

He stared at her. She stared back. Then, very slowly, one corner of her mouth lifted. That was enough.

Taehyung exhaled through his nose. “You really did.”

She shrugged, all false modesty. “You were being insufferable.”

“I’m always insufferable.”

“Yes,” she agreed, far too readily. “But that day you were energetic about it.”

He took one step closer. Not enough to trap. Enough to remind. Cella didn’t move. That intrigued him too.

Most girls at Westbridge reacted to proximity with performance. They fluttered or softened or played intimidated depending on what they thought would please him most. Cella never did any of that. She met him like a challenge she had not accepted but intended to survive.

Taehyung lowered his voice. “Do you enjoy risking your life?”

Cella’s eyes flicked once to his mouth, then back up. “Do you enjoy dramatic phrasing?”

“I’m serious.”

“So was I.”

He looked at her for a beat longer than necessary. Then, despite himself, despite the fact that she had humiliated him in one of the most inconveniently personal ways possible, he smiled.

A real one. Small. Sudden.

The kind he rarely meant to show. Cella saw it. And the change in her was immediate. Not obvious.

Just a little pause. A little lost second where her eyes widened almost imperceptibly and then dropped as if they had betrayed her.

Taehyung noticed everything.

He leaned in slightly, voice dropping near her ear with deliberate softness.

“Are you blushing, Rodriguez?”

Her head snapped back up at once. “No.”

“That sounded defensive.”

“That sounded observant. There’s a difference.”

He leaned a fraction closer still, enough for his breath to brush the shell of her ear.

“Careful,” he murmured. “You keep turning red like this and people will start thinking you like me.”

Cella went scarlet. Actually scarlet.

Then she shoved at his shoulder, not hard, but enough to make him step back half a pace and glared at him with murderous fury.

“I hope your next gym class is unbearable.”

Taehyung laughed. Out loud this time. Warm and low and absolutely unable to stop himself. Cella looked briefly furious that she had caused it. Then she snatched her books more firmly against her chest and walked past him, adding at the door,

“And for the record, your face is the least interesting thing about you.”

He turned toward her retreating back. “That’s a lie.”

“It’s a public service.”

She vanished into the corridor before he could answer. Taehyung stood alone in the classroom, still smiling like someone had just handed him sunlight and insult in the same package.

He hated how much he liked that.


As the weeks slid into months, this became their pattern.

In public, he was her bully.

He took her notes. Ordered her around. Made her carry his sports bag, his literature folder, once even his lunch because, according to him, “Your hands are already functioning, use them.” He mocked her tied hair, her neat handwriting, her absurd loyalty to sharpened pencils, the way she still used sticky page flags in textbooks like some kind of deranged academic squirrel.

And in return, she obeyed with the face of a woman imagining arson.

But privately...

Privately she fought back with artistry. The second major incident happened at home.

Taehyung was sprawled across the edge of his bed one Sunday evening, trying to finish the chemistry lab manual he had, of course, bullied Cella into writing for him because she drew cleaner diagrams and because “if I do them, the examiner will assume I’ve been educated by wolves.” She had muttered something about wolves having better manners and completed the written sections anyway.

So when he flipped open the manual to add the last few labels himself, he was expecting beakers, equations, and her annoyingly neat lettering.

He was not expecting a lizard.

Taehyung screamed.

Not a dignified sound.

Not even remotely masculine.

A sharp violent noise ripped from him as he launched backward off the desk chair and landed half on the sofa near the bookshelf, heart slamming against his ribs while the manual fell open on the table.

The lizard remained there.

Still. Too still. He stared.

Then narrowed his eyes, breathing hard, and leaned forward carefully.

Rubber. Fake. Ugly.

Perfectly positioned between two pages like it had been waiting specifically for his soul to leave his body. For three full seconds he said absolutely nothing.

Then he began laughing.

He laughed so hard he had to sit down properly. Because there was no one else it could have been.

No one touched his things. No one came close enough to touch his school material unless they wanted to lose the use of a hand. His mother wouldn’t go near lab manuals on principle. His house staff knew better than to interfere with anything left in his room.

Only Cella.

Only that infuriating little menace with her scholarship notes and calm eyes and hidden cruelty and smug devil-brain.

He picked up the rubber lizard, turned it over once in his fingers, and grinned.

“My Cella,” he murmured before catching himself. The grin didn’t leave.

The next day he found her in the science corridor just after practical, tugged her by the sleeve into an empty classroom before she could object, and held up the rubber lizard between two fingers.

Cella looked at it. Then at him. Then back at it. And had the audacity to look innocent for nearly two full seconds before the smile broke through.

Not broad. Not girlish. A wicked little thing.

Taehyung leaned one hip against the teacher’s desk and said, “You nearly killed me.”

Cella tilted her head. “That seems dramatic.”

“I screamed.”

“That sounds deserved.”

He watched her, genuinely fascinated. “Do you always carry fake reptiles for emergencies?”

“No,” she said. “I bought that specially for you. Don’t be ungrateful.”

Something in his chest did an unfamiliar thing then something warm and sudden and almost stupidly pleased.

Taehyung held up the lizard again. “You put a rubber monster in my manual.”

“And yet,” Cella said sweetly, “you survived.”

He moved before she expected him to, closing the distance in two easy steps until her back hovered against the wall by the window, the afternoon light catching at the curve of her cheek and the little sharpness in her gaze that never softened fast enough.

Cella didn’t flinch. Never flinched.

Only looked up at him with that same furious composure that made him feel both cruel and strangely alive.

“You think you’re funny,” he murmured.

She smiled, slow and poisonous. “I know I am.”

He braced one hand against the wall near her head, close enough now to smell paper and chalk and the faint clean scent that always seemed to cling to her skin even after a whole school day.

“Keep this up,” he whispered, lowering his mouth nearer to her ear, “and I’ll have to retaliate.”

Cella’s breath caught. He heard it.

And because he was weak where she was concerned in ways he would rather die than confess, he let the pause stretch just enough to make her pulse show at her throat before adding, very softly, “Although watching you pretend you’re not scared of me is getting addictive.”

Her face went warm instantly. Not because she was scared. Because she was not nearly as unaffected by his nearness as she wanted to be. She shoved at his chest this time. Harder.

“Move.”

He smiled. Actually smiled. And the idiot traitor thing inside her chest stumbled painfully at the sight. It was unfair, Cella thought with immediate internal bitterness, that a person who behaved like Satan’s favorite son should have a smile like that.

Worse, his smile always made his face look innocent somehow.

Less cruel. More alive. Dangerous.

Because if she looked too long, she started noticing details she had no business noticing. The shape of his mouth. The way his eyes darkened when he was amused for real. The fact that when he walked away in fitted school trousers, his stupidly good body had no moral right to be arranged that beautifully.

More than once now, she had found herself staring at his retreating figure and thinking, with sheer horrified outrage:

Why does his butt look like a perfect heart?

Each time, she had immediately scolded herself.

Because the universe enjoys humiliating you personally. Focus on your studies. Not on the rich menace with the criminally shaped backside.

It did not help.

Especially not when he turned back at random moments and caught her looking, and she had to pretend she’d been staring at the wall behind him like a very committed liar.


For all her private vengeance and all the tiny ways she got under his skin, Cella did not forget what Taehyung was in the public world.

He was still her bully.

Still the boy who claimed her in corridors and made her carry his things and called her nerd often enough that the whole school started repeating it. Still the one who could humiliate her with a glance if he chose. Still, technically, one of the privileged boys from the same kind of world that had taught her years ago exactly what happened when girls like her fought openly and expected justice in return.

Her trust did not come cheaply.

Not anymore.

Once, at her previous school, she had made the mistake of believing that if rich kids crossed a line and she reported it, truth would matter more than money. She had been younger then. Hotter-blooded. Less strategic. She had confronted. She had spoken. She had insisted.

The scholarship had disappeared within the month.

Not officially because of that, of course. Official things were never worded so honestly. Administrative adjustment. Restructuring. Review of merit allocation. By the time the adults were done dressing injustice in paperwork, she had been the one asked to leave.

Since then, she had changed strategy. She did not walk headfirst into systems built to protect people like them.

She adapted.

Ignored what she could. Endured what she had to.

And when opportunity came, she bit back carefully enough to leave marks only the right person would feel.

That was why she complied with Taehyung at all. Not because she had surrendered. Because she had learned the cost of fighting stupidly.

Still, some part of her, some inconveniently perceptive part had begun seeing things she could not unsee.

The way Ryan’s group never came too near her anymore. The way boys who used to throw little comments her way now seemed to lose interest the moment Taehyung appeared within sight.

The way he interrupted not only conversation, but approach. The way he always somehow arrived before irritation turned into anything uglier.

It unsettled her.

Because she understood enough to know there was protection inside the cruelty. But she did not yet understand why.

And because she had trust issues wired into bone now, because kind gestures from powerful people usually came with hidden prices, because boys like Taehyung had every reason to be temporary and none to be safe.

She chose not to trust him fully.

Not yet. Maybe not ever.

Even while some smaller softer part of her had begun doing dangerous things in his presence.

Like relaxing. Like feeling, very slightly, that when he was nearby, the day would not go completely wrong. Like noticing that sometimes, when he thought no one else was watching, his expression around her changed first before his tone did.

Tiny things. A glance too long. A note pushed onto her desk not to order, but to ask whether she had eaten.

A stolen pen returned uncapped but with the refill replaced. A bruising public arrogance that somehow became gentler the instant walls and silence belonged only to them.

It should not have made her heart race. It did.

One evening, near the empty back corridor after classes, he stopped her by placing a palm flat against the wall beside her shoulder, trapping nothing except her attention.

Cella looked at him with immediate irritation.

“What now?”

Taehyung leaned in just enough to make the corridor feel smaller.

“You switched my contact name in Aarav’s phone.”

She blinked once. Then twice. “Did I?”

“You changed it to Overdressed menace.

This time she failed to hide the smile. Taehyung stared at it. The actual smile on her. Not the tiny cruel private ones she used after revenge. This one was softer, caught halfway to escaping.

His entire body went still.

Cella noticed and instantly wiped the expression away. “You deserved worse.”

Taehyung’s eyes remained on her mouth for one beat too long.

Then he looked back up and said quietly, “Probably.”

The answer was too sincere. She hated how that affected her.

So she went sharp again. “Then stop lurking around me like an expensive disease.”

He smirked, recovering himself in the exact infuriating way she expected. “No.”

“Why?”

His face changed. Just slightly. The smirk thinned. His gaze darkened.

And for one second - a dangerous, impossible second, he looked at her as if she had asked something much bigger than either of them was ready to answer.

Then he said, lightly, “Because you’d miss me.”

Cella glared at him. Her heart, traitorous and useless, began pounding.

He noticed that too. And because Kim Taehyung was born to be a menace in every universe, he lowered his mouth nearer to her ear and whispered, “Also because your angry face is my favorite.”

She made a sound of pure outrage, shoved him again, and stormed away down the corridor while he laughed softly behind her.

She wanted to hate him. Sometimes she did. But increasingly, infuriatingly, she was starting to understand the far more dangerous truth:

Taehyung was becoming her safety before he became anything else.

And that kind of attachment could ruin a girl faster than cruelty ever did.


At night, he thought of her too often.

At school, she thought of him far more than was healthy.

Sometimes when he smiled after scoring on court. Sometimes when he leaned over her desk and pretended to insult her while his voice dropped low enough to make every nerve in her body overreact.

Sometimes when he walked away and she had to actively stop herself from noticing the outrageous fact that yes, his butt was still shaped like a perfect heart and no, she was not happy about it.

And every time, every single time, she told herself the same thing:

You are not falling for your bully. You are simply sleep-deprived and academically pressured and apparently possessed by bad taste.

It changed nothing.

Her heart still sped up when he smiled. His heart still softened where it should not have. And between them, week by week, some dangerous private world was taking shape.

One in which Kim Taehyung was publicly her tormentor.

One in which Cella Rodriguez was privately impossible to control.

One in which nobody else understood the truth at all.

And perhaps that was for the best.

Because if the school had known what really happened in the empty classrooms and quiet corridors, how she made him laugh, how he leaned too close, how she glared like murder while blushing under the skin, how every insult between them had started carrying something warmer and far more frightening underneath it.

Then Westbridge would have recognized the danger much sooner.

Not that he might break her. But that she was already getting under his skin badly enough to matter.

And Kim Taehyung, for all his cruelty, for all his carelessness, for all the sharp expensive armor he wore like second nature, had begun wanting something he did not know how to ask for without ruining it.

Not just her obedience. Not just her time.

Her trust. Her laughter. Her eyes on him by choice.

He wanted impossible things now.

He knew that.

He also knew one simpler truth, one that had become instinct before he had bothered naming it:

Nobody touched her.

Nobody disturbed her peace.

Nobody.

Because whether she liked it or not, whether she trusted him or not, whether she spent the next month trying to murder him with school supplies and pharmacy products.

Cella Rodriguez was his.

And that should have frightened him much more than it did.

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